Alone
I was always lonely,
Although I lived in a boy’s hostel,
I had a girlfriend
But I was quite lonely
In those nights,
With a room full of 14 boys
Or 15 i can't remember
Filled with ganja smoke
And dripping whiskey
Grooving to pink floyd
I was quite alone,
The morning rather to dadar station
The train was khacha khach
And the flower sellers on the roads
I think it was a tuesday
God’s day
I felt delhi would solve this problem
I knew people here
They spoke like me
It was lonely,
In those blurry dingy bars
Late night cab rides
Selfish hookups
Filled to the brim ashtray
Salary pings
Nothing could drive away
The emptiness
The paintings came
So does the non rhyming poems
There were video calls
With families
With friends
Someone even got a cat
It usually lived by my bed
He was quite lonely
Although i think he enjoyed it
Dizziness kept pouring
Sometimes rum, sometimes cocaine
There were dreams
Nightmares and lucid
Birds were larger than roofs
And monuments were lively
Some played sitar
Some played drums
Walking through the empty lanes
Ferocious dogs
And worn out pigeons
There were apps that said they were social
Governments changed to worse
world was at war
Thousands died
But the party in the town never stopped
Cheap cigarettes
And desi wines
Amongst these pale walls
With old trees
And white wires
Wooden tables
Sable hair brushes
And all those half drawn papers
I was still alone.