Bored
You know those people
who stick things on notes
make lists
thats me now, me this artist
so called artist
don’t even know when was he last time I was art
feel more like a blob full of rice and dal that i just gulped
with quarter of a heart invested
in this smoke of death I am filling my lungs with
looking into oblivion
looking into my phone which has zero
to be precise, zero things interesting
everything feels like in slow velocity
with time running at a speed of light
waving through like a lover saying goodbye
on the airport to maybe never return
still you hold on to feelings like love
and then people ask looking at art
what does that mean?
how would i know
if i knew i wouldn’t most probably make it
just maybe cry in front of my therapist
who would ask me to take deep breathes
have to remind humans now to breathe, drink water and soak sun
but then what is the point of going out
when every moment is a comic book panel
leading to another moment
to another moment to further saying
to be continued
thats me now, always thinking about the next thing to happen
never living in the so called moment
just complaining crying cribbing about the future
that i cannot control
past i cannot forget
and spitting the paan i just ate on my present
it is tasty though, maybe i did enjoy the moment for a moment
naah this is not a good piece
this is just a rant
like every other rant i’ve written
thinking it will make me feel better
what will make me feel better is doing my actual work
my lists
never ending lists
but i wont, i know i wont
cause i am this blob, of smoke and mints now
just waiting for life to wake me up
and kick on the face
and by that time,
time, fucking evil enemy that keeps running
and all you can do is chase it,
you might feel you made it once or twice in a life of 80 years
but time always wins
how it flows like curls of lover
like roads when it rains
like clouds are laughing
while taking a piss on humanity
eh! bored of this now
will just go back to cursing the world
easy fucking thing to do
maybe thats what life should be
easy and not a war
against time
i don’t know
i am just bored.